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Name: Stacy
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Cincinnati
Birthday: 6/4/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: anything and everything having to do with Richard Belzer and AC/DC, Working at KI, TV, movies and music, comedians
Expertise: smiling, the Belz, indecision, horrible spelling, being a KI slave
Occupation: Student
Industry: Business
Message: message me
AIM:  smilingsurface
Member Since:
1/12/2005
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| I swear to God, I'm gonna kill people! | | |
| There's a lady who's sure
All that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows
If the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and shes buying a stairway to heaven.
There's a sign on the wall
But she wants to be sure
'cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook
There's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.
There's a feeling I get
When I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen
Rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.
And its whispered that soon
If we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn
For those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.
If there's a bustle in your hedgerow
Don't be alarmed now,
Its just a spring clean for the may queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road youre on.
And it makes me wonder.
Your head is humming and it won't go
In case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow,
And did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.
And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.
And she's buying a stairway to heaven | | |
| Well, N8 and I are going to try this again. I know you all probably think I'm an idiot for taking him back so quickly. Believe me, I'm questioning myself too. But I saw an opportunity to end both of our pain and misery, in order to replace it with happiness. I did set some new ground rules and we're going to take it VERY slow. For the whole story, which is LONG!, you need to contact me, because class starts in 10 minutes and I don't have time to write it all out. Again, big thanks to all of the people who were there for me when I needed them. I'll be trying to repay the favor for the rest of my life. To quote one such friend: "Ur not an idiot. Ur in love." | | |
| Okay, so it's been 4 days since the big breakup. I've stopped crying. I've been thinking a lot. I've been talking to almost everyone. And someone said something that hit me; Brad (my ex-future-brother-in-law) told me that he never thought N8 treated me quite well enough. And I'm strating to think.... maybe he's right. Maybe I deserve a lot better. Maybe I'm not losing as much as I thought I was. Maybe I don't want N8 back. Or at least I need to see some changes before I let myself fall for him again. That being said, I should recognize that I haven't spoken to N8 since Saturday. I told him I needed this time to heal, and for the most part he is coroperating. The next time I talk to him will be on Friday. I'm scared and nervous about this conversation. What will he say? What will I say? How is this gonna go? I guess I'll be posting again this weekend with those answers. In any event, thanks to the help of WONDERFUL friends, I feel much better. I feel more confident. I feel like I am strong enough to get through this. And I am. Big thanks go out to Stacey, Chris, Karrie, Sam, Sarah M., and Sarah B. Additional gratitude is offered to all those fantastic people who posted on my wall, left a comment on mySpace, messaged me, texted me, and/or called. I love and appreciate all of you. | | |
| So N8 and I have broken up. It was a mutual decision with no hostility on either side. Basically, he feels like he needs some time to find himself and discover who he is. At first he didn't want to end the relationship completely; he just wanted something less serious. But after a LOT of crying, talking, and thinking, we decided that there was no way he could find himself while we were together. However, there's still a lot of love between us. We're scared of losing each other and we're going to be friends. And who knows, maybe after he finds himself we'll be able to start again. | | |
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